lies

i feel like
a spade
shovel went through
my torso and
scooped out
everything it
could
leaving a
back-bone
and a brain

and even though
a brain is all
i have left
i still am
listening
to my former
guts.

i am paranoid
i thought
this is stupid
i thought
stop thinking this
i thought

then they told me

its true
i feel
i was right
i feel
it was all lies
i feel