disconnect

looking at next semester
looking at life
looking at what I have to do
and not being ready

looking at the schedule
looking at the lack of time
looking for the
light at the
end of the
lincoln tunnel

looking at the grass
looking at the stone
looking at the face
and looking at what has
happened since the past.

and then suddenly
in the last moment
before i walk to my
car, i hear a word,
not of my own voice,
but of all the times
i've been looking
and of all the signs
and of all the conclusions
i've made, finally a
re-affirmation of
this final attempt
of how much i love
but how much i hold in
and hold back
and seeing what
you feel and holding it in.

disconnect. don't leave
stay, stay close, smile
and be happy and never
speak a sore word or have
a moment of uneasy rest.

just simply
disconnect.

and keep living.
and keep looking
and keep listening
and always see.

"ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began"
happy 21st birthday
i hope at some point
i will or have made
myself
someone
else's
hero...