Sunday, January 9, 2011

a quote on ruin

"A sky as blue as eyes"

"A friend took me to the most amazing place the other day. It's called the Augusteum. Octavian Augustus built it to house his remains. When the barbarians came, they trashed it along with everything else. The great Augustus, Rome's first true great emperor. How could he have imagined that Rome, the whole world as far as he was concerned, would be in ruins. It's one of the quietest, loneliest places in Rome. The city has grown up around it over the centuries. It feels like a precious wound, a heartbreak you won't let go of because it hurts too good. We all want things to stay the same. Settle for living in misery because we're afraid of change, of things crumbling to ruins. Then I looked at around at this place, at the chaos it has endured - the way it has been adapted, burned, pillaged and found a way to build itself back up again. 
And I was reassured, maybe my life hasn't been so chaotic, it's just the world that is, and the real trap is getting attached to any of it.  
Ruin is a gift. Ruin is the road to transformation."
e.g.

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

He hadn't thought of it himself.

Minds spinning uncontrollably
flipping our phones, making calls
following our social networks
showing concern and support
without a moment to breathe
from the shock of it all.

He was relaxed and content with his life, laying in his bed.
The boy had moved onto a new job, a new life.
The girl moved on as well, with new jobs and her new love
and her dedication to building the grandest gem in her town.
They became amicable, she even performed in a play he wrote.
To which she did not get the praise she deserved. 
She was his favorite. They were friends again. 
Even in a dark hour of the past year, she was there for him.
He could always trust her. Even if he broke it.


But this afternoon was different. It was cold outside 
but his body was warm
after a nap. Isn't it funny that our bodies always 
seem brilliantly warm after a nap. 
Like furnaces, fueled by our dreams.


And he flipped open his laptop and saw a status update 
he refused to believe.
"Caved in," was the way it was described.
Then crumbled to the ground.
Then collapsed. 


"She must be terrified and sick, all that hard work..."he thought.
So he called his newsroom, he was a reporter now,
and asked if he  could be of any assistance 
despite that this all happened on his day off. 
They agreed and asked him to reach out to her. 


He searched his list of contacts before 
clicking on her name.
He hesitated, "what do I say?" he worried.
So as she had taught him, 
he got a notebook and 
scribbled out his thoughts
and his questions for her and left plenty of space 
so she could share the page with him.
Would she even pick up the phone in a time like this?


Of course she did. 
She always did, no matter what. 
They chatted briefly. He got his material.
And he was determined to help using 
what she taught him.
Help the only way he knew how.


By writing. 


It was news this time. But writing is writing. 
And when the story was filed, he noticed 
an advance editorial for the 
following day's paper sitting on his desk.
The editor wanted to make sure it was OK with him.


It was generic, told the fact, told the story, 
told us everything we knew.
The boy almost crumpled up the editorial and cried 
before he read the last few words.


And for the first time in writing for her, 
he was bewildered that
he hadn't 
thought 
of it 
himself.


(But I can't say what it said
until it's published tomorrow morning...hehe ;)

I wonder if you even still read this.
Not that I think you should.
You're in the middle of a
psychotic tornado.
I don't expect it.
But the event led me back
to our sunny shores
and all of it started rushing back in.
All my fears that I'd forgotten it have vanished.
Just when it looks like their world collapsed,
you woke them from their sleep.
Never stop writing. Please.
You're brilliant.

Monday, January 3, 2011

excerpts of our levoy

from 3/26/08
and when
its finished
let us enjoy it
or let them have it
so we
may run
away
and watch
blue eyes
for you
glow


from 3/18/08
the energy
of this place
the energy
of town
the energy
of our universe
the energy
of this day
the energy
of the people
of their lives
of their joy
the energy
only EVER
matched and
duplicated
by the energy one feels...

...on stage


from 11/27/07
this may not be easy
at any point
the whole road
may be a bitch
but just see the outcome
and see the possiblities
it will change lives

from 11/30/07
the show begins
with a dream
and a
theatre...




we might only be friends now, but don't loose sight of your magic