Saturday, January 24, 2009

thin

holding on
trying
to remember
that "it"
exists
but living
in a sea
of endless
chatter
endless
schedules
endless
moments
of looking off
into space and
not knowing
what to think
wanting so
badly to be
somewhere
else, somewhere
safe and knowing
that this place
prevents it all
if i had control
for a moment
i'd be there
feeling
so fragile
and looking
for some
little
art
or
expression
that might
still
exist
that might
still be
that might
actually
exist
in this
and
finding
a way
out...

"You can be Henry Miller
and Ill be anais nin
Except this time itll be
even better, well stay
together in the end
Come on darlin,
lets go back to bed"
-morning song, J.Kilcher

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Letter To the President

Dear Barack:

"I'm just so tickled pink, I don't know why!"
"I didn't vote for him, but looking back, I should have"
"Isn't this one of the greatest things...ever?"

....are just a few of the phrases I heard yesterday.
I just wanted to say: my entire belief system
is based on the mental ability to look at a situation
in a positive light, without the bearings of negativity.
I love seeing people filled with joy, and happiness.
I live for special moments in life that make us smile
make us come together and have a celebration.
And I admire humans who can give other humans
hope and joy and comfort and relief and talk to them
and let them know that they are not alone in this
world and take away their sadness and give them
even the slightest glimmer of happiness in this
crazy world, letting them know that this world
is still truly full of wonderful things.

Furthermore, I believe you and I
are going
to get along
very very well.

-Jim Cook, Jr.

Monday, January 19, 2009

disconnect

looking at next semester
looking at life
looking at what I have to do
and not being ready

looking at the schedule
looking at the lack of time
looking for the
light at the
end of the
lincoln tunnel

looking at the grass
looking at the stone
looking at the face
and looking at what has
happened since the past.

and then suddenly
in the last moment
before i walk to my
car, i hear a word,
not of my own voice,
but of all the times
i've been looking
and of all the signs
and of all the conclusions
i've made, finally a
re-affirmation of
this final attempt
of how much i love
but how much i hold in
and hold back
and seeing what
you feel and holding it in.

disconnect. don't leave
stay, stay close, smile
and be happy and never
speak a sore word or have
a moment of uneasy rest.

just simply
disconnect.

and keep living.
and keep looking
and keep listening
and always see.

"ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began"
happy 21st birthday
i hope at some point
i will or have made
myself
someone
else's
hero...

Friday, January 16, 2009

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Winter break

I need to start back
Winter break is everything
but uninspired during the day
and thinking like a madman
at night

Books
Torino
Flatiron
Piano
Play

"I was thinking
That it might do some good
To rob the
Cynics" j.k.