You are not a star

We can
separate
from our
lives
we can
go foward
we can
go back
but i take
my time
slow and steady
does not always
win the
race
but i need
what i need
and i know
what that
is now
i have
my plans
i
have
my goals
and i
will win
and no one
will stand in
my way
like i said...
"I know this will happen"
just be
patient
im not saying
stop
im not saying
wait
get everything
done!
get it done as
efficiently
as possible!
we will
i know
we
will

and i love you
so much
but not
because
you are
my star
i dont see
you as a star
a star is so
small
and it's light
takes forever
to reach me
dont be the star
be the sky
the vast expanse
of everything
when i look at the sky
i see all of the stars
and when i look
at you
i see
the
sun

I've Been to The End of the World

it's true
i haven't traveled
much
but i've
been to the
end of the world
and i'm
back from it.
I've seen where
the last
street has
been paved
where the atmosphere
meets outer-space
and where an old tree stands with many names carved in it
where the last
breath has
been taken
where the love
can be taken
from you

instantly...

i am
young
and very
much alive
and carefree
and happy
and very much
in-love
and i fear
not what others
think of me
what is it
their buisness
what i do with the
time i am alotted
on this planet.
I am only so young
and carefree
and happy
because i know
how precious
life is
i know
i know
i know
how dark this
world
is
how selfish
people are
how evil and cold
people can be
i appreciate life
because it can
be taken from
me
or you
at any given second
on any given day

I remember
very vividly
a random second
on a random day
in september
when someone i was
very much in-love
with
was taken
suddenly
quickly
away from me
away from the world
away from her family
her friends
oh i loved her very much
but i learned how quick life is

much too quick
so quick it's not fair
I experianced
the tears
the screams of anguish
and terrors in the night
the nightmares
the daymares
the face of the world laughing back at you
the face of God turning away
for a brief second
I know what happens when someone becomes
so grained into your life,
that when
they go
part of you goes too...
for two years
i was not able to feel pain
i was invincible
i had two relationships
and was unable to feel it
unable to die until
my time comes
i was ready to go
at any given second
on any day
any time
no concern whatsoever
the dead cannot feel pain
and part of me was dead
so i felt no pain
or love
for a long time
which was painful
and cold
in itself
because at any given day
"feeling" might return
and i thought that i was
a cold
soul-less
body
still pumping
blood
but one day
suddenly
with a turn of my head
with a glance
a few words
a look, across
a crowded room
on a flight of stairs
"feeling" returned
and i went wild
but i still appreciate
life.

so before i am judged
before you think
that i am naive
before they think
you can
hurt me
or destory
my life
or
kill me
remember:
i've been hurt
before
i've been destoryed
before
and i've died
before

and i'm back
and i'm selective
and i know when something is right
and this is right
and this is love
and i love you

So...
if they tell you
he's YOUNG
he's NAIVE
he's FRAGILE
...ask them if they've ever been to the End of the World
if they have, then i send my deepest sympathy
and if they haven't
i will
gladly direct
them
to the
tree
at the End of the World
that i once
carved my name on