soon to be filled

i am
sitting
next to you
we have
a while
until people
will see us
the home
is empty
but soon to be filled
and the product
is finished
but something
else excites me

i see your face
i've seen
it
a thousand
times
which is not
nearly enough
i gaze into
your eyes
and know
we are
home
we've
found love
in each other
the energy
pierces
the room
gentle
shocks
before the
storm of
the show
i can not
contain myself
what do i do?
do i look at the new
home?
do i warm up my voice?
do i go over some of my lines?
do i do any of that?

no
i can't
i have all
i need with me
i gaze into your
eyes and i am in
love
and i kiss
you
and
isn't
that
just fine.

what a week

this week
has been
phenomenal
the love
the food
the city
the bar
the love

the love
is amazing
i will
never
expel
myself
of it
and how
changed
i am
because
of
you
and how
swept away
i've been taken
and how
wonderful
your eyes
to gaze into.

this week
i have
been
changed
in so many
ways
you just never know
whats going
to happen
next.
you just never know!

you are
my glass
of wine
i get so
tied up
with every
little
thing
and then i see
you
and
i completely
let go
over every
thing
i once
cared about
i am
new with you
and i feel
comfortable.
more than
with anyone
else...
i love you

"Votre âme est un paysage choisi
Que vont charmant masques et bergamasques
Jouant du luth et dansant et quasi
Tristes sous leurs déguisements fantasques.

Tout en chantant sur le mode mineur
L'amour vainqueur et la vie opportune,
Ils n'ont pas l'air de croire à leur bonheur
Et leur chanson se mêle au clair de lune,

Au calme clair de lune triste et beau,
Qui fait rêver les oiseaux dans les arbres
Et sangloter d'extase les jets d'eau,
Les grands jets d'eau sveltes parmi les marbres."
-Paul Verlaine

i met an old friend today...

there is
a fire
inside of
me that
refuses to
burn out
no matter
how many time
shit may
hit the fan
i have
an umbrella
to keep me
from
getting
stinky

i met an
old friend
today
i was having
a bad morning
tired as hell
and making
a WaWa run
for breakfast
just before
organ lessons.
I got my
orange spice tea
and hash brown
and was well on my way
out the door
when
through the glass
an old friend
waved to me
i haden't seen
him since
high school
his "crowd" never
liked me
or accepted me
because i was different
and they thought
that was to uncomfortable
for them to relate
to.
but him
and i were
good
friends.
we had done
a show together
hung out
a few times
we were even in
choir together
and for him...that was alot...
because his friends
hated
choir boys

but we
had some good times
him and i
and i havent seen him
since high school
except for today
in passing at WaWa
"HEY jimmy!"
"Hey Zach, how've you been man?"
"Great...you?"
"Good. Nice seein' ya!"
and i began to walk away
how stupid of me
and then i heard
"Hows college?"
so i turned around
and walked over
to his car.
"College is okay,
what have you been up to?"
"I'm going to
Iraq
in June.
And I
got
married
and
we're
expecting
our first
baby
soon..."

"Wow, congratulations Zach.
Good luck with everything."

"You too!" and he
got in his car,
i got
in mine
and we parted ways.

Now i know why
we have to stay
true to this project
Now i know why
I'm doing this
Now i know that
what we do together
could save the lives
of young people.

This town is
very nice
very quiet
and it's school
teaches that
if you have a talent
you should bottle
it up
if you have an
energy
then you are different
in a
bad way
Sometime we have
outlets
to express what we
are truly feeling
to be ourselves
sometimes
we have that
but not always
and after being brought
up being taught you are
just a normal person
"JUST LIKE EVERYBODY ELSE
JUST LIKE EVERYBODY ELSE
JUST LIKE EVERYBODY ELSE
JUST LIKE EVERYBODY ELSE
JUST LIKE EVERYBODY ELSE
JUST LIKE EVERYBODY ELSE

you must face
these idiots

you pop

we go off to war
because
we can't
express
ourselves
and we're
too afraid to let
anyone
know that we
actually feel
human
emotions

i dont
want to just
do this project
for our own
gratification
i need to help
these people
if i can just
change
and help
one
person
be themselves
it would mean
the world.

"SHAW: I hope you never doubt that I love you
If that's hard to figure out sometimes, well, then, I apologize
But you are dearer to my life than you could ever realize"
-Footloose "Can You Find It In Your Heart"

i met a new person today...

I met a
new person
today
a guy
with light skin
and short dark
wavy hair
i sat in
my car
and watched
this
stranger
go to
his car
i planned on
taking
a nap
He fumbled
with his
car
got out
and
approached
my car.
So I
rolled
down the window
He was wearing
nicely pressed
jeans
tennis sneakers
and a white
Puma
soccer jacket
(I'd seen that jacket before)
He was
shorter
that me.
He asked
if i could
help him
start his
car
if
i could
give
him
a
"jump"
He appeared
normal
but once
we got to
talking,
he seemed
a bit unsure
yet kind
he must have been
weary
of the
stranger.
He made
me wonder
if i was talking
strange
or if i myself
was normal.

His car was
brand
new,
which added
to his
frustration.
He had a terrible
time getting the
hood of his
car to
open
but i helped
and figured out
how to open
it.
"I was just
going to call
my Dad, but
I saw you
there..."
"Oh its fine"
i said, "I'm glad you did..."
"I'm not holding
you up for
any classes
am i" he asked
the idea of holding
a stranger up for a
class to help
you
is terrifying
isn't it?
"Not at all,
i have a good hour
or so before class"

The cables
would not
stretch over
to my car
so i
manuvered it
twice
until the cables
reached.
We started
the engine
but he got nothing
i revved the
motor
nothing
he got out
quickly
and tried to
re-adjust the
cables,
but was unsure
so i got out
and re-adjusted
them
securely
once again the start of my
engine
and the start of
his
eureka!

And somehow
i wish his
engine didn't
start,
I wish
there
was more time
to get to know
people.
i wish we
could all
just put every little
problem down
and just hang out
or do something
to aid in
getting
to know
one another.
Had he
not asked
for
help
we would
never have known
each other.

He thanked me
graciously
"I wish
i had something
to give you
i dont have
any money"
he claimed
"No no, Don't
worry
about a thing
It's fine.
I've been in
this situation
a million
times."
That was
a lie
but it made
him feel
better.

"Thank you so much"
he exclaimed, "My
name is

Ben."

"I'm Jim"

We shook
hands
Some strange
salutation
greeting
human contact

It's absolutely
unbelievable
how each person on
this Planet
is so very
interconnected.
I never fully
understood this.
until just today

I met a
new person
today.
I helped
him.
He wanted
to give me
something for
my help
but had almost nothing.

"here, this is all I have"
and i accepted it.
i NEVER would have
but i knew
what it meant
and i did.
and for
as long aas
i remember
this
i'll be able
to keep
that little
gift
I can't tell
you what it
is.
nothing illegal
nothing concrete
but
it was
enough.

i've experianced this...

something
changes
as the snow falls
there is a
silence
that
never can
be heard
any other
time
and to
add this
is christmastime
i wonder
what
happens
to the earth
on snowy evenings...
everything
becomes
so inviting
so alive
within the dead
the silence
is so loud
all of the
other sounds
disappear
to watch
the snow
fall...

-STOPPING BY WOODS ON A SNOWY EVENING-
Whose woods these are I think I know,
His house is in the village though.
He will not see me stopping here,
To watch his woods fill up with snow.

My little horse must think it queer,
To stop without a farmhouse near,
Between the woods and frozen lake,
The darkest evening of the year.

He gives his harness bells a shake,
To ask if there is some mistake.
The only other sound's the sweep,
Of easy wind and downy flake.

The woods are lovely, dark and deep,
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.

-- Robert Frost

teen pregnancy...

let me explain
something
has been on my
mind for
the past
year
it has something
to do with
teen pregnancy
this is a glimpse of it:

i feel the
holiday time
now
definatly
is time for
christmas
we celebrate
and buy
and spend
and drink
and live
and change
and love
and do all
of those things
that make the holiday
special
but for what?
because a fourteen year-old
girl
and a sixteen year-old
boy
had a baby
and we all
shun the mistakes of
teens getting pregnant
and look down
on young
people
having children
and yet the first
famously known
case of this
is the reason
we go
crazy
and the reason
we have a holiday

ironic?
so before
you look
at a young girl
in her third trimester
before you look
at that young boy
strolling his son
before you
judge them
and
place blame
and
thank God
that
you're children
didn't make those
mistakes...
look again
and thank God
that He did