The show begins...

I see a
marquee
Bright lights
beeming
in your
eyes
I see a
new home
a place
to spend
our energy

There is a
special
feeling
one feels
if they walk
onto a
stage
an hour
before a
performance
Alone on
a stage
the set
is there
but the
theatre is
empty.
Just an hour
before the show
there is an
intensity
an
anxiousness
and eclectic energy
tremors
before the
EARTHQUAKE

When that
place was
first
created
everyone was
alive
everyone from
that time
is now
gone
their stories
their shows
their dreams
and plans
have all gone
and left
a simple
shell
a building
once a
festivity
now a past world

"good things are built
even good things must go"
-the bowmans

But energy
is neither
created
nor
destroyed

One Hundred years
have passed by
and suddenly
i see
the dark
street,
let by the gas-lamps
the carriages
and new-fangled
motor cars
the silk and satin
dresses
Gold paint
satin spats
top-hats
a different
time
a bell tolls
the last call
for this evening's
seats
The final sips
of champagne
as the men escort their
wives to their seats
the young men
hold their
girls close
to their sides
in the
balcony
the conductor
takes her
stand in the
pit
lights up
curtains up
1908

the show begins
with a dream
and a
theatre...

It's in the stars

so much
has happened
i cant contain myself

sometimes when
i'm too
inspired
i stop
clear my
thoughts
and begin a larger piece

i love her
it is very
true
writing about her
loving about her
when i think of me
i'm all about her

the shards of
metal
poke
through the ground
and grow and
multiply
and become
lived
in
and the people
live
and live
and live
and live
and i
visit
and live

everything
is so close now
everything
and near
everything
is at our
fingertips
everything
is before us
nothing
behind us

no hesitation
no caution
no question
no doubt

no doubt
of complete
success

"i was meant for the stage
i was meant for the curtain
i was meant to tred these boards
of this much
i am
certian"
-the decemberists

Wednesday November 28th 2007
Virgo Horoscope (my sign):
"You're a good achiever, and what
you attempt to do is likely to turn
out quite well. However, what's
even more laudable is that you'll
involve others in your successes
and achievements."
-Today's Sunbeam

does this mean
anything?
success?
yes?

involve others?
the stars tell the truth
its ours
its meant for everyone
its meant to be opened
and used and
played on.

"the stars, too, they tell of spring returning"
-duncan sheik from SPRING AWAKENING

it's meant to be now...

"So swell to keep every homefire burning for..."

i saw
you
across
a crowded room
and everything ended
and i started anew

i never felt
that way
and i would
have
never
reacted
the way
i did
but...
i did
and here
you are
and here
i am
and here
WE
are
together

I knew it was
meant
to be
I know we're
meant
for
each other

I know it

I love you

"You'd be so easy to love
So easy to idolize
All others above
So worth the yearning for
So swell to keep every homefire burning for
We'd be so grand at the game
So carefree together
That it does seem a shame
That you can't see
Your future with me
'Cause you'd be oh, so easy to love"
-Easy to Love (Cole Porter)

i am the bridge with much water in-between

Today I give "Thanks"
Something has happened
I give thanks for the
questions
I had
for the
answers
i needed
and for the
love
reinforced

I know where
they
get it from.
They
get it
from their
parents
It was not "born"
in them
it was
"carefully taught"
to them
as richard and oscar
might say.
they are both
the way they are because of their families.
but it was not born in them
i know this
because
it was
not
born in
me.
It was
taught
but i am
blessed with
another teacher
one i had to
leave
to realize how
important
he is to me
and now im back

and there is another
another person
that i love unconditionaly
I KNOW THIS WILL HAPPEN
I KNOW THIS WILL WORK
and
i know
we love
each other.

this may not be easy
at any point
the whole road
may be a bitch
but just see the outcome
and see the possiblities
it will change lives
just like
the man it will belong to
has changed lives

you are my teachers
you are my lovers
i am bound to my home
but families change

without my theatre
i'd be one of them
and i know what is right for me
and i must change now
because i don't see
anything else in this world
for me

but
this

i am
the bridge
i always have been
a connector
of two worlds
with much water
in-between
but she is
the train
building a world
and i must choose to
stay the bridge
or
to take the train

"ALL ABOARD"
-Hello Dolly!

i will take that train

"its been several months since i've talked to my mom"
"today is wide open, today is a dream"
-the bowmans

thursdays

OH we're so close now
to friday
but i will live
each
night
with the hope
that tomorrow
brings another
show
shows forever
the theatre will always be
here
for us
and if its not
WE are
here
for us

"most people
live
on a
lonely island"
-R&H

so true
but now I'm on
Bali Ha'i
as James Mitchner named it
Do you know that
Bali Ha'i
is based on a
real
island?
and even in his many
travels back to
Guadalcanal
and Marie Louise
he refused to
ever
go to
his "Bali Ha'i"
so that it would
always
remain a
mystery
a
dream

i dont
think this
is a dream
but if it is
i'll sleep a
million
years

romance plays music on the silvery screen

the pink and gold paint
glimmer
as we enter the
beautiful theatre.
the red seats
shine
the blue ceiling paint
is
dull
but i wont look
up
i'll look at you
i'll take you
to the balcony
the seats arent as
comfortable
and the leg room
is tight
but thats
okay
because
we can be closer.

heres what it looks like
from up here
they say many
young couples have
kissed
for the
first time
in this balcony
ever since this theater
has been operating
1920s or something
...it wont be the first time
but we can be the most recent.

we take our seats
hold my hand
the lights dim.

the movie begins
the old flicker reel
scratchy
then romance plays music
on the silvery screen
the names we've all heard of
the title we know well
(its on our ticket stub)

black and white
just like it used to be
or is now?
yes
it's 1954
hepburn sits beside me
and i
bogart
stare into her eyes
whisked away into some
other time
a better time
maybe we were meant to be here
or there, rather

i could kiss you forever
as the romance plays music
on the silvery screen

oh for the love of next thurday

I've never felt this way
or have I?
You've made me
forget if I've ever
felt this way.
It all feels so
new
It all feels so
fresh
What a wonderful
life this is!
I think this is the
only show
I could do
every day of my life
and it would
never
get
old.

long shows are needed today more than ever

well i'm absolutely exhausted
and amazed at the show i've been involved in
i love it
i love this show
if it was a minute shorter it wouldn't be enough!

this world is so...
what i'm trying to say is
that all we want in life
in this day and age
is Instant Gratification
text messages
cell phones
e-mail
blogs
internet
computers
we need shorter shows where everything is set
in front of us
quickly
for entertainment
get in
and
get out

no

we need long 3 hour shows
especially by R&H
so we can learn
so we can become less
dependent
on our own
self gratification
we want everything quickly
theres no sense in looking deeper
and thinking
and learning
from these shows

never doubt them or else,
what happens in them will happen to you

"once you have found her
never let her go..."

Opening Night

Whew tonight
i live for opening night
my favorites
exciting
enchanting
engergy
emazing
amazing?
haha

but i learned something
when i heard something...
"to hate ALL the people your relatives hate"
this show's hate issue
is
not
just about
race...
it's about deciding for ourselves

after parties are the best
i cant believe i'm saying this
i'll miss it too much when it's all over
i wanna make it last...

"i've known you a few short weeks
and
yet..."

practices

practices have been crazy
stressful
long
i have homework to do
global
warming
whoopie
i haven't started, and it's 1am
one a.m.
in the
morning
practices have been crazy
stressful
long
enchanting...

"I known you a few short weeks and yet
somehow you've made my heart forget..."
-r.rodgers & o.hammerstein
geniuses